“Maggie’s is my haven of calm”

Friday 26 April

“Maggie’s is my haven of calm”

Carole was diagnosed with breast cancer in summer 2015, undergoing surgery and radiotherapy.  Carole shares how Maggie’s helped her to cope with the psychological impact of her cancer diagnosis. 

When I received the news following a routine mammogram I was utterly stunned. I was thrown straight into treatment and throughout this time, physically, I felt well and even continued to work. 

What I couldn’t prepare myself for was once treatment was over and how lost and abandoned I suddenly felt. During the next few months I lost my wonderful Mum and I was rushed to hospital on a number of occasions having my gall bladder removed, pancreatitis, sepsis, pneumonia, and a collapsed lung. 

This was all too much in a short space of time. I was frightened to go anywhere on my own. I didn’t want to meet up with people in case they enquired about my health. I seemed to be spending most of my days in bed or with my feet up. Doing house work was almost impossible and the state of my home upset me.  At the time I felt I wanted to go back to work but knew I didn’t have the energy, I felt that I was never going to move forward. Then my GP recommended Maggie’s!

It took a while to actually work up the courage to get through the doors but once I did I had a chat and a cry, and that was the first time I’d cried. I walked out that day with hope that I could move forward. 

I joined in a few sessions, I received advice on benefits after my employer terminated my contract and I was becoming massively anxious about having no income. 

I had sessions with the Psychologist, which I genuinely believe helped me to move forward and made me realise that my emotions were normal after such a traumatic period in my life.  Slowly I began to set myself little targets and do some of the things I used to do before my diagnosis.     

I don’t want to appear dramatic but before I came to Maggie’s everything in my world seemed pointless.  I had lost so much; my health, my career, my confidence and there didn’t seem much point in carrying on.  

I feel I owe Maggie’s so much for helping me to find ways to cope and move forward.  Maggie’s is my haven of calm, a place I can go and relax and where I feel like people genuinely care.